kimberly in a state of emergency

I haven't written in ages! I have even forgotten about punctuation! It's almost scary.


Anyways, I realised that it's good to write. Even if it may be utter rubbish. Even if it may be just a little, it would still be kind of beneficial to me.

Family camp ended! It was good. I enjoyed myself, heard from God, got closer to my friends and relaxed. I found that even though time usually flies by when you're having fun, time went by slower for me. It was great! I got to enjoy myself and also have a full day. Instead of a normal school day when time goes by even though I am suffering with my homework.

I don't know WHY I keep getting annoyed with Lauren when all she's doing is being a seven year old girl. I get so frustrated when she asks me for help. But after I shout or scold or whatever, I feel so bad. She doesn't MEAN to annoy me! Really! She doesn't.
I just get so tense and aggravated. (God help me.)

At the moment I am enjoying my school holidays. It's relatively relaxing except for the homework the teachers piled on us. But it's okay because I know now that if I don't work hard for anything now in my school days, I will never learn. I'm freaking out about my O levels exams though. All this talk about it makes me want to cry. But it's just another hurdle in life that I have to go through.

I really do have a good family. A family where we can play games together, talk about most things, watch movies together, talk, and lotsa things. There's no perfect family though. So we have our shortcomings. But God helps us through :)

I just realised that a blog is like the one place where I can ramble and talk about whatever I want! And i don't have to apologise for it if i don't want to!

i also dont have to care about punctuation! wahey :D :D :D :D

haha

also i can be random. Which is what I DO.

I'm worried. I don't have a plan for my future and people keep asking me about it. And I get so embarrassed and scared. I don't know what I want to do in my life. I don't know my passions, my skills, my direction. All I do know is that I DO want to serve God in my generation but I get so distracted! Distracted by material things (i recently spent a lot of money on unnecessary things and now i'm so regretting.) and distracted by friends, family, the computer. And i've been neglecting my time with God, my homework, my schoolwork, my chores. Even my blog! Sometimes I just worry about the wrong things too! :-/

It's like so much easier to let superficial things take hold of your life, than beneficial things right?

I wish I could write like Chanelle, Alyssa, Ethan, Mam, and Jeannette. I feel like such a bimbo next to them.

But again, this is a small thing to worry about.

I need to go now. Lauren is asking for help with something. And if I don't go, she'll just disturb me til I scream. I need self-control.